i'm having a good God day
so, since i've been to seminary, i have in general felt more spiritually dry and even spiritually anorexic. i don't often get much God in. for a while, i was probably ignoring but now i'm trying to figure out how to get back. and i realize that i won't probably feel the same way i felt in college any time soon but i have faith that my relationship will continue to grow if i just keep on keeping on. this is where i especially love the example of john wesley. he totally knew about this feeling. but he kept going because he knew that it was better than doing nothing and hoped it might all eventually lead to something. and it did. all this to say that i'm having a very in tune to God day. true, it's not a life-shattering heart-warming experience. but i have been feeling a good glow all day and this is quite significant to me. i'm revelling in it. basking. soaking it up while i can.
some of the highlights that i think helped lead to this point:
first, we had two guest speakers in my pastoral care of adolescents class, a pastor and his gay son. they spoke about how the coming out process affected them both and how the church they were at played into it all. it was just very encouraging and hopeful for me to hear their stories and how they have changed and grown. it gives me hope for those i sometimes write off in my head as not having hope. it was just a powerful story and i appreciate their willingness to share it.
second, i had an interview at a church for an interneship next year. i felt very comfortable with both the pastor and the elder. it seemed like it would be a good fit. usually, i don't feel so good after i leave an interview. the one other time i did feel so good was after my interview at tisdale umc where i ended up working for three years. i really really really hope this works out. i pray that this may be the place God is calling me. and it makes me have joy that i am again praying and trying to find out where God wants me. significant improvements.
third, and this one may seem a bit silly, i heard the tobymac song "made to love" on the radio. generally, i think tobymac is a little ridiculous but i'm finding i really do enjoy the substance of some of his songs. this song in particular seems to be exactly what i'm feeling. "whatever happened to a passion i could live for; what became of the flame that made me feel more; and when did I forget that ... i was made to love you, i was made to find you, i was made just for you, made to adore you, i was made to love and be loved by you." so good. so what i feel.
and all this added to my continuing high of italy. italy was fantastic, wonderful, amazing, indescribable. but i promise that i will try to describe it some time for you. or at least tell you what i did.
peace.
some of the highlights that i think helped lead to this point:
first, we had two guest speakers in my pastoral care of adolescents class, a pastor and his gay son. they spoke about how the coming out process affected them both and how the church they were at played into it all. it was just very encouraging and hopeful for me to hear their stories and how they have changed and grown. it gives me hope for those i sometimes write off in my head as not having hope. it was just a powerful story and i appreciate their willingness to share it.
second, i had an interview at a church for an interneship next year. i felt very comfortable with both the pastor and the elder. it seemed like it would be a good fit. usually, i don't feel so good after i leave an interview. the one other time i did feel so good was after my interview at tisdale umc where i ended up working for three years. i really really really hope this works out. i pray that this may be the place God is calling me. and it makes me have joy that i am again praying and trying to find out where God wants me. significant improvements.
third, and this one may seem a bit silly, i heard the tobymac song "made to love" on the radio. generally, i think tobymac is a little ridiculous but i'm finding i really do enjoy the substance of some of his songs. this song in particular seems to be exactly what i'm feeling. "whatever happened to a passion i could live for; what became of the flame that made me feel more; and when did I forget that ... i was made to love you, i was made to find you, i was made just for you, made to adore you, i was made to love and be loved by you." so good. so what i feel.
and all this added to my continuing high of italy. italy was fantastic, wonderful, amazing, indescribable. but i promise that i will try to describe it some time for you. or at least tell you what i did.
peace.
posted by kyledawn @ 3:57 PM
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