late night mid-summer blog entry

hellooooooooooooooooooo! long time no see. it's already july. i can't believe it. my summer is going beautifully. i love it here. i love the people here and i feel so at home. it makes me sad to think this summer is halfway over; that i have already spent half the amount of total time i will have with these people here. i have never felt so much like myself. does that make any sense? i don't know. i just know that i adore the people i know here and they make me feel loved. it's true i have friends and family that make me feel loved but i have never felt so connected to an entire group of people. i am so grateful to have new friendships with people from all over the world. but i can't get away from this creeping sadness of the knowledge that i will leave them and again, i will not be able to keep in touch. and if i think about it too much, i have angst about having to return to school. confession time: i have realized that i was never truly myself at princeton and never entirely happy because of it. now, i have to find some way to take the me i know now and have the courage to show that person at pts. and now, i think i have said too much. i must go finish writing the sermon i am preaching today and get some sleep. this really is meant to be a happy post because i am so at peace here. i wish i could explain to you about each and every person i have met so far. i love them.