songs that get stuck in my head

these are some of the songs that get stuck in my head and just won't get out for days. it doesn't matter if i have heard the entire song, just a little snippet, or if someone has just mentioned the name of the song. it will be in my head indefinitely. and i will randomly start singing it. if i try to listen to other music, i just know that i'm trying to forget the other song and it stays there even longer. the only cure is for it to run its course. so, without further ado:

• take it on the run - reo speedwagon
• i wanna know what love is - shirley bassey
• jingle bells
• st. elmo's fire - john parr
• only time - enya
• three blind mice
• tom's diner - suzanne vega
• don't you want me - human league
• where do they make balloons? - they might be giants
• take me home tonight - eddie money
• promise of a new day - paula abdul
• be with you - mr. big
• all by myself - celine dion
• if i could turn back time - cher
• seasons of love and la vie boheme - rent soundtrack

that's all i can think of right now. i know there's more. i actually do thoroughly enjoy most of these songs; it's just that once i hear them, they're with me for at least three days. really, i think the reo speedwagon is the worst one because i don't really know all the words. next would be the eddie money song. it's funny that a lot of these are from the 80's ...

what are the songs that plague you?

a brillliant moment and an idiosyncrasy

i had a brilliant moment already today. i had church history precept at 8 this morning. every week for this precept we write a one page paper. and yes, i had my done for today. i printed it off and headed to class. when the preceptor asks us to turn our papers in, i reach for my folder to take it out. it's not in there. so i look in my bookbag. not there. i look at my loose papers. not there. i left my paper on my printer. brilliant. i have it done but i look like a doofus by not bringing it to class! thankfully the preceptor understood (and smirked a bit) and said i could bring it to him as soon as i had time.

idiosyncrasy time: one of my favorite idiosyncrasies that i possess is that whenever i remember an embarrassing memory, i either start humming or shake my head. i think i do this to clear the memory from my brain. and really, there is no need for me to relive most of these memories. they're done and probably nobody remembers them except for me. they're just silly things i've done in my life. so, if you ever hear me start humming and/or shake my head, you can be sure that if you ask me what i'm thinking i'm not likely to tell you!

take a deep breath and...

thank God for clean laundry!

(and it was free!!)

kansas who?! kansas who?! you don't know kansas who ... okay, i'll tell you

kansas the best way to buy tuna!









(you might have to read it out loud to get it...)








HAHAHAHA! i did laugh out loud when i first heard that one. still chuckle about it just thinking of the joy i hope it brings all of you.

"who's there?" you ask...well, let me tell you:

kansas

howsa bouta joke

knock, knock.

encouragement from the second love of my life

after considering john wesley's life, i have learned that even if it's hard to believe, to keep going through the motions is not an exercise in futility but is constant preparation for a divine event to happen

a moment of honesty long overdue

i had a revelation yesterday while listening to an old song by audio adrenaline. "i'll be your hands. i'll be your feet. i'll go where You send me." now, when i chose to play this song, i was thinking "oh, let me listen to that fun song that i like so well" not "how am i going to have a soul baring revelation unexpectedly by hearing something again for the first time?". so here it is. and it's not a happy thing but it is a good thing to recognize.

i feel like i am a part of God's body that has been paralyzed. i want to do God's work and go where God sends. the problem is that i don't know where God wants to send me. in fact, i haven't heard a word from God in a while. probably for two or three years. there have been those moments where i understand God better or glimpse God's radiant beauty. but, i haven't felt a leading presence. i have forgotten what my faith is. and i don't know what to do. so i wait. i don't wait patiently or with great composure either. i wait with tears in my eyes and anguish in my heart. but i wait. and i try not to sink further in these depths of paralysis.

now, i did hear something today in my crucifixion and resurrection class that provides hope. i want you to bear in mind that i am not comparing my present situation in any way to the torment and anguish that Jesus felt on the cross. that is too egocentric even for me. but, i can learn more about what faith and trust is by looking to that moment of utter despair. Jesus cried out to God. Jesus cried out to his God. Jesus cried out to a God that he could no longer see. He prayed honestly and with endearment even when He didn't know if He was to be heard anymore. that is the greatest act of trust.

so, i wait. and i hope. i try to trust. and i cry.

"my God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"

this is dedicated

to the ones i love:





happy valentine's day 

out of chaos, hope

pts friends, you should come to the presentation in the mackay main lounge this tuesday from 12:00 to 1:30. people will be sharing about their experiences working in mississippi during intersemester break. i have been meaning to blog about my time there because it really was an eye-opening experience. but, you still have the chance to hear how meaningful it was for a group from pts to go to the gulf coast and witness the devastation and try in a small way to help people recover from that. there will be testimonies from some of those who went. there will be pictures that tried to capture what is was really like (even though pictures are really not a true comparison to seeing it firsthand, there are still some powerful images that should be seen). the amazingly talented neah lee will be performing a song she wrote about some of the things that are going on in biloxi. and, there will be discussion about how pts can help in the future. recovering from hurricane katrina is not a quick process. they are saying it will take five years but could be up to ten. we can not forget. so, if you are able, i encourage you to come and see.