sitting here tonight...

being vastly underwhelmed with myself. no, not really. but i threw that in just for my friend megan.

i'm sitting here and i hear the music from upstairs. and i am a bit sad. i would love to go up and join the gold patron's party but, alas, i shall not. last year, for reasons unremembered by me, i did not attend the gpp and i vowed i would go this year. dadgummit that this year my stomach is still upset and it wouldn't be much fun for me. oh well. i guess i still have two more chances...

i hope everyone had fun!

one of my greater fears of the semester = done

my week to lead precept in crucifixion and resurrection is over. so glad that i had a very capable co-leader in erin babb to get me through. i don't know why i have this irrational fear of precept leadership (well, i kinda know ... some of it's because i think everyone here is super smart) but everything always turns out all right in the end.

i think i'm going to take a nap now. and look forward to the toast emily is bringing me for lunch.

update

i think i may try to eat lunch today.
my first real meal since monday.
here's to hoping...

**addendum
nope, i was wrong.
only sierra mist for me.

healer

ann sang this to me last night and i was really impressed with the song (and i will not neglect to say that the way ann sang it was gracefully affective). it really hit me where i am... i'm longing to hear God speak to me. and i want to be able to run hard to enter God's rest.

Healer, heal me
Savior, save me
Maker, change me
Lover, love me
cuz i'm so tired of living for
the kind of love
that only lasts for a while
the pain, the shame
tear me up inside

so i fall on my knees
to get back on my feet again
and i cry out for You
would You please speak to me

Healer, heal me
Savior, save me
Maker, change me
Lover, love me
cuz i'm so tired of living for
the kind of love
that only comes and goes
but Your love
Your love lasts forever

so i fall on my knees
to get back on my feet again
and i cry out for You
to hear you speak to me
yes i fall on my knees
to get back on my feet again
and i run hard for You
to enter Your rest
-ten shekel shirt

a day of celebration

this day, the twenty-eighth of march, two thousand and six, marks the anniversary of the birth of ann elizabeth rosendale one score and four years ago.

be sure to tell ann how much you appreciate her today, her two-dozenth birthday!

ann, thanks for being born!

correction

i'm pretty sure that i'm not stressed and in fact am sick.

as per the suggestion of dr. saldine, i'm going back to bed.

what is this feeling?

tightness in the chest
upset stomach
can't sleep at night
headaches
tired all the time

i think it's stress. generally i don't feel stressed out but i think when it happens it manifests itself physically (as in me thinking i'm sick but i'm not). but why? why am i stressed?

"as for me, i am poor and needy,
but the Lord takes thought for me,
You are my help and my deliverer,
do not delay, o my God."
psalm 40:17

i'm at a loss...

anybody know of any good field ed. sites that aren't filled yet? all the churches i was interested in have their interns for next year and i have to find something last minute...

my friend krista

is a great person

not a jerk in any way

she makes me laugh

and is crucially honest

let's all take a moment and appreciate her

blessed to be a witness

corcovado parted the sky
and through the darkness
on us he shined
crucified in stone
still his blood is my own
glory behold all my eyes have seen
have seen

i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed to be a witness

some have flown away
and can't be with us here today
like the hills of my home
some have crumbled and now are gone
gather around for today won't come again
won't come again

i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed to be a witness

so much sorrow and pain
still I will not live in vain
like good questions never asked
is wisdom wasted on the past
only by the grace of God go i
go i

i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed
i am blessed to be a witness

-ben harper

tooting my own horn

so, i thought a comment i wrote on a friend's xanga was worthy of repeating. i'll probably think this comment is less genius/clever when i read it again tonight as i check my post for comments and will regret that i put it out there for all (all meaning those that actually peruse my site occassionally), but here it is nonetheless. my comment of inspiration this sunday morning:

'as all procrastinators know so well, the school stuff will somehow all get done but when are you ever assured that the things that really make life important will get done...'

this is the end to my advice to my friend on how to spend her spring break. she made a list of things she would like to do this week and it consisted of probably half items school related and half items that are fun. obviously, i'm the supporter for the fun half.

toot toot.

after a nine day hiatus...

...you have to have something really thrilling to update your blog. nothing better than a birthday:

happy 54th birthday carl!!

more friends coming today!

welcome to amy and sarah!

i had a really good time with my friend sara (who i know from high school). we had lots of nyc adventures. the first night we tried for student rush tickets for rent and both of our names were drawn! first row seats were great (although i did feel some of the sweat drops hit me :S). it was really cool to make eye contact with them. the hockey game on saturday was totally awesome! apparently these two teams (the nj devils and ny rangers) are one of the biggest rivalries in the nhl. the devils won! it was great that a dad and his young son sat next to us because the son would ask his dad some of the same questions i had and i would get to hear the answers! sunday night we went to tiger's tale with some cool folks. again, much fun! monday was our big day in the city: we went to see the statue of liberty, ellis island, chinatown, soho, times square, shopping, dinner at olive garden overlooking times square, a movie (16 blocks...really good) at loew's and a night at the holiday inn. on tuesday, we headed back down to battery park because sara wanted to buy a fake rolex for her husband and that was the only place we saw people selling them. we asked some of the shady looking guys if they had watches and they didn't but then one of them ran to get his friend. i thought that was pretty funny. all that for a fake rolex. and then, sara went home :(

but now, amy and sarah are coming! i pick amy up today at the airport at 1 and we pick sarah up at the bus station at 8:30ish. i think amy may get a tattoo during our waiting time. we'll see... don't really have any other set in stone plans for this week. probably going to philadelphia and driving to new rochelle, new york to eat at buffalo wild wings. and i have to work friday, saturday and sunday. that stinks. but at least it's shortened hours. all i know is that we'll have a ton of fun! this is our last hoo-rah together for a while. amy is headed to bulgaria for two years with the peace corp. sarah and i will both be working in maine again this summer.

fun times for reading week!

my friend sara from kansas is coming to see me tomorrow! she's flying in to la guardia and we're going to stay the night in nyc. i made appointments for manicures because she was supposed to come when i won that makeover but she got sick so she's coming now and i thought i should treat her to some of what she missed. then we're hopefully going to see a show! we're going to be trying for student rush tickets and i'm going to encourage either rent or wicked but sara gets to pick cause she's the visitor and i've seen both and love both so i will go happily along. i've had songs from rent in my head all day so that may be a sign. if all else fails, we're going to stop by the tkts booth and see what they have.

then on saturday i think we're going to the met and hang around new york in general. on sat. night we're going to a hockey game here in jersey. i've never been to a hockey game so i'm kind of excited! and it's cool that i get to see nhl the first time out!

alas on sunday i have to work from 12 to 5. i'll probably let sara either sleep in or come to work with me and let her bum around palmer square. i feel like a bad hostess but i tried to get off work. then we're going out to dinner with lots of folks, including ann and her bff that is visiting, to the tiger's tale.

don't know what the plans are yet for monday or tuesday. sara heads home on tuesday afternoon.

so, i prolly won't be posting until wednesday. and then there will be another lapse of posting when my friends amy, from michigan, and sarah, from minnesota/maine, come to see me thursday through monday. it's amazing that i have so many wonderful friends that want to come see me. i love it!

taking my official stance

chris is going to win.

i may like elliot and mandisa. but, i think this rocker is going to take it all.